Tuesday, January 14, 2014

1 3 x 1 3 ♡ G O O D B Y E 2 0 1 3

This is a post that will be centered around the year 2013 and the number 13. So, I suppose waiting 13 days to write this would have been much more striking than waiting 14 days. But we can't have everything, can we? Besides, with every hour, the death of 2013 is moving further back in time, so it's not like I can wait another day just because I'm too ashamed I missed posting this yesterday.

Hm. Don't know if that's true or not... Let's pretend it is. (It isn't, I was just lazy).

Enough yapping. 

For starters, the title of this post is (another) big lie. I'm not going to write 13 things from 2013. I'm going to write 3 x 13 things from 2013. So a total of... Something. A lot? Math. 

Don't worry, I'll keep it short. 

What should we start with, then? 
Well, considering I feel like I can call myself a "fashion blogger" despite writing so much non-fashion crap all of the time, I figured the first 13 should be...

1 3 ♡ L O O K S

One per month, one bonus ! Orange and blue and star eyebrows and so on. 

But most importantly, 
the year of the onion wig.

I sold that wig yesterday, it honestly feels like the end of an era. I don't know why. Or, well, I do, but it's not a very legit reason - I just became very attached to that wig and I didn't expect us to ever grow apart. We shared some nice times together. Photoshoot for ROYAL☆RXXER's website (which is not up yet), trips to Amsterdam and detours through Sweden, not to mention the insane amounts of questions and tumblr notes we got, as well as the failed tutorials we tried making. 

Cannot tell you how many times I've almost thrown my MacBook out the window because of that damn wig that never got a stupid tutorial, goddamn it. Stupid wig. 

I will miss it and love it forever of course.

1 3 ♡ S O N G S

13 songs that I've listened to a lot this year, for some reason unknown to me. It's been a very heavy j-rock year for me. Both new and old songs, one at a time, on repeat for weeks. 

I'm not even kidding when I say I listened to the first song on this list, Paradise Paradox, for like 4 weeks straight. 4 ! ! Same with the rest of the songs on this list, to be honest. Paradise Paradox is just the one that started the madness, I guess. 

Click on the songs (and get hypnotized as well) 
if you want to understand what I'm talking about!

I wonder how many hours I've listened to these songs in total this year? 
Too afraid to even think about doing the math.

F U N F A C T: 
Dunderpatrullens album "Fan vad han skrek när vi åt pizza här sist" translates to something like 
"fuck how he screamed when we had pizza here last time"

1 3 ♡ U P S + D O W N S


Because of the tale of the foot I couldn't walk for three thousand years after I got home, I was a whining mess, stranded on the couch feeding my sadness with food and tea. Totally worth it. Got to meet Dana and Naomi, see a beautiful place and smuggle puddings back to Sweden. 

The puddings. 

I could honestly go back for the food alone, wow. Just. Wow. 
We have better chocolate in Sweden, however. Not that that is very interesting to know.



Me and Alex, who had just gotten his driver's license, drove down to Östergötland by ourselves in June. We basically spent four days at my summer house with mayonnaise, bear, sesame oil and eggs in our tin-foiled wrapped hair, hating things and watching Parks & Recreation = the most perfect description of our friendship, ever. 


Me and the people that are now my very closest friends got very lovey-dovey towards each other as 2013 tip-toed through January and February, March, April, and so on. You get the drift. Certainly not a bad thing. I have to contain myself not to embarrass myself by getting too heart-eyed around them. Unless I'm with Alex. He shoots me down and says that he hates me, but I know he loves me somewhere in his black tsundere heart, so I'll keep nagging and pretend like he's saying nice things (which he sometimes actually does). 


I actually don't need much of a caption, strangely enough. We met this summer, she was dolled up in hime gyaru and walked like a gangster down the street, shouting lame Swedish party songs with a ghetto accent. How could I not fall for that? Point is, she makes me happy and I'm obviously happy to love her. Very much so! 


This goes hand in hand with 'FRIENDS' but still, deserves another place in the spotlight. We have some upcoming conventions and events, now, it's been so much fun getting started. Even if we're still a bit all over the place. We'll slå våra kloka huvuden ihop and get organized in no time, yes. 2014 will be good.


It was fun, despite me getting to old for that shit. It was. 
See, I told you I would feel this way after a few months. I'm too predictable. 


For some reason my entire family spent Christmas spoiling me so much I actually felt guilty. Then again I'm swedish, so I'm programmed to feel guilty when someone does something extra nice for me. Anyway. They all know how much I've struggled and they've been there while I've worked my way up a whole mountain of crap. So they just wanted to help me end my year bombarding me with all them feels they could possibly give me. 

I love my family. When I'm rich I'll buy them so much crap, that's a promise.

8. MUSIC ↑

IN PARTICULAR 168-one sixty eight- because since 2010 there has been a HOLE in my heart where Aoi was supposed to be. Let's face it, Aoi from Ayabie, not a good project. 168 on the other hand? Bitch is back. 

Most people reading this will probably be a bit confused and want to abandon this post now but some people will understand me and let me just say that I love you. 

9. MUSIC ↓

Dammit, AYABIE. 


Dammit Amsterdam. Dammit work. 

Seriously? Did you really have to? Oh the weeks I've spent with fifty layers of tape and toilet paper wrapped around different parts of my body. New year's resolution: buy actual bandages.



12. SCHOOL ↓↑

As you probably know, since I write about it a lot, I have been out of school on and off since this time, two years ago. "Mental health" sounds so... I don't know. But it's the reason and it's nothing I can do about it. I hit the wall and I hit it badly, obviously. So, in the beginning of 2013, I made the decision again to leave permanently, and it wasn't fun. 

I spent a few days on my kitchen floor, annoying myself and everyone around me with mixed feelings and angst. That's how it was between January and October. Things got less-kitchen-floor-y after June, but then in August when I felt like I wanted to go back, I started crying the minute I stepped in school and they told me they couldn't help arranging some sort of home studies for me. 

Then, bam, we went to a place where they've collected all choices of high school education, and bam again, within 30 minutes I was signed up for three distance courses that began just last Wednesday. 

No more kitchen floor. 
(That rhymed). 


Oh my god. I spent three weeks scrubbing around 180 stairs, 5 laundry rooms and a serious amounts of toilets, floor to ceiling, step by step, with a very tiny sponge. I don't think I need to say more. 

T H E ♡ E N D

To sum it all up and put a beach at the end of this ocean of text (what am I writing), 2013 was one hell of a rollercoaster. And I must say, I'm happy to leave it behind and move forward. 

Not just because it started off as such a bad year, not just because I haven't felt very well most of the time, but because it ended in such a great way. I have so much to look forward to, now, and I've come very far. Oh, cheesy, but true. "Finally" is the only word I can use to give the whole year a label.

I'm not going to allow myself to get more emotional than this. So, I'll just stop by giving myself some motivation, by labeling this year while it's still starting up: 

Hell yes. This year will be good. 

Let's share it together people ♡ I love you all very much, thank you for sharing 2013 with me and making me happy when I haven't been very happy. Now I'm feeling swedish again. So, just, thank you. Very much. 

P.S. If you've managed to stay with me until now and read this whole thing, I salute you. 


  1. oh i love that look you wear a boater and orange hair ^3^

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  2. I think I just fell in love with your without makeup- face, you adorable thing, you

  3. Congratulations on the progress you've made this year! I found your blog during 2013, and I really think that you're a fun and interesting person. I really enjoy reading your posts, and your coords look wonderful ^^ I hope January is going well for you~

  4. Lemme tell ya, I'm weeping beause you don't own the bun wig anymore.
    Also, thanks for letting me notice I missed Nightrider. Fixing that now.
    YEY AYABIE DAMMIT AYABIE in the same sentence is a legit thing.
    Also valid for Aoi because I'm still not liking 100% of the 168 stuff, but at least I'm getting good fixes of his perf voice.
    I would suggest you find a job with a lower risk of you getting injured, but since that seems unlikely, then I suggest you bring with you a real proper first aid kit with you to work. I bet your fingers will thank you.
    I think by the end of this you were a bit slightly delirious (ocean of text, really). But anyway I hope this year is as good as you want it to be!
    *salutes back*

  5. Sounds like a really heavy year to you indeed, but interesting to read I must admit.
    Reading about your music makes me a bit nostalgic because of all the visual kei bands you listen and specially ayabie, those good times when aoi was in the band... I can understand you a bit in that case, though I haven't listened to them in such a long time, they still remain in my head.
    The way you described your "onion wig" year was so dramatic haha have to say it looks so good on you! Hopefully it has landed to a wonderful new home by now. c:

    Have a nice year and I hope we can read more from you!